Often times grieving is associated with death, but what about grieving over the living. I sit and wander how much my personality and perceptions of certain things would have changed if I had a closer relationship with my family.
I lost my brothers to the prison system before we were old enough to go out to a club and buy a drink. We were all just focused on different things and our environment only provided us with limited views of the world. It just hurts to know that they have missed out on so much of their lives. They will always have to work a lot harder now that they have an additional label to go along with the other challenges that already come along with being an African-American male.
It upsets me to think of the lives my nieces and nephews had, some of which I have never met.
I use to feel lost and and out of place when I was around people who were discussing their families because I never had anything to say, but now I have just accepted it for what it is. It has definitely made it difficult for me to trust people or let people get close to me.
I lost my brothers to the prison system before we were old enough to go out to a club and buy a drink. We were all just focused on different things and our environment only provided us with limited views of the world. It just hurts to know that they have missed out on so much of their lives. They will always have to work a lot harder now that they have an additional label to go along with the other challenges that already come along with being an African-American male.
It upsets me to think of the lives my nieces and nephews had, some of which I have never met.
I use to feel lost and and out of place when I was around people who were discussing their families because I never had anything to say, but now I have just accepted it for what it is. It has definitely made it difficult for me to trust people or let people get close to me.
Interesting perspective. I never thought about grief & loss in that way.
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